song.journal.november.december.2011.

11.04.11. Stompin' The Roses.
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When you were younger, did it occur to you
10 years from then, you'd act the same age?
I cannot carry on this way
Although I've carried all your every little thing
Carry me away
Did you feel like Stomping The Roses?
Smashing out all the feeling inside of them
It's bad business
The way you're Stomping The Roses
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I was flipping channels on my television
And it made me feel unwell
One of those complicated soap operas
I almost felt like I was watching myself
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11.08.11. Heartland Heartbreak.
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She walked in she saw a western star
I saw my chance to have a good March
Well that month turned into a year
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See she wanted me to sell it all
Move to the city and get a real job
Well I told her I would rather go to hell
She told me she rather I go by myself
She was my Heartland Heartbreak
My pretty little mistake
She left me down by the cold lake
Now she's driving my truck away
My sweet little '58
I tried to stop her but was too late
She left me holding my tail gate
Sometimes I don't know my own strength
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11.21.11. Dear John.
Long were the nights when
My days once revolved around you
Counting my footsteps
Praying the floor won’t fall through, again
My mother accused me of losing my mind

But I swore I was fine
You paint me a blue sky
And go back and turn it to rain
And I lived in your chess game
But you changed the rules everyday
Wonderin’ which version of you I might get on the phone, tonight
Well I stopped pickin’ up and this song is to let you know why
Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone

Don't you think I was too young

To be messed with?
The girl in the dress

Cried the whole way home
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11.22.11. Don't You Break My Heart Slow.
I liked the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky
I was believing in you
Was I mistaken?
Do you mean,
Do you mean what you say?
When you say our love could last forever?
But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow, at least then I would know
But Baby Don't You Break My Heart Slow
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You would run around and lead me on forever
While I stay at home still thinking we're together
I wanted our love to last forever...

11.23.11. A Perfectly Good Heart.
Why would you wanna break A Perfectly Good Heart?
Why would you wanna take our love and tear it all apart,now?
Why would you wanna make the very first scar?
Why would you wanna break A Perfectly Good Heart?
Maybe I should've seen the signs, should've read the writing on the wall.
And realized by the distance in your eyes that I would be the one to fall.
No matter what you say, I still can't believe
That you would walk away.
It don't make sense to me,
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12.05.11. Country Boy for Christmas.
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The only present that I really want this year
Should have eyes like Keith Urban, be strong like Tim McGraw 
Have hair like Dierks Bently and sing like them all
He should love my momma and take good care of me
I want a Country Boy under my Christmas tree
I don't mind a farmers tan,
A real cute smile and rugged hands
That go to work all day until the sun goes down
He'll ask my dad if it'll be okay
If he could take me out for our first date
Cruising in an old ford truck I can see us now
The only present that I really want this year
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12.07.11.  Do It Right.

Usually, I have two left feet on the dance floor
The last guy to steal a kiss on the front porch.
But this time, it’s gonna be different
This time, I'm gunna walk right up, take your hand,
And tell you how I feel
I just wanna do it right,
‘Cause I don’t wanna lose ya.
Say something tonight that might scare you away.
‘Cause I’ve been known to stumble,
And if you see me, fall flat on my face,
It’s ‘cause you take my breath away.
Ohh and if I’m gonna take that chance tonight,
Ohh I, just wanna Do It Right.
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12.08.11. Didn't You Know How Much I Loved You.
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Left me all alone
You couldn't be more gone
From falling apart to fighting mad
From wanting you back to not giving a damn
I've felt it all
I've been to the wall
Didn't you know how much I loved you
Didn't you know how much I loved you, baby
I gave you everything, every part of me
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12.12.11.Wait.
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Even though you're gone I can hear your heart
It's calling out my name like a flash in the dark
If this is just a dream
I won't give it back
I'll find a way to make it last
One more minute, Wait, Wait, Wait, don't go
Just one more minute, Wait, Wait, Wait, don't go
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12.15.11. I Wanna Hippopotamous for Christmas.
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I can see me now on Christmas morning, creeping down the stairs
Oh what joy and what surprise when I open up my eyes
To see a hippo hero standing there
I want a hippopotamus for Christmas
Only a hippopotamus will do
No crocodiles, no rhinoceroses
I only like hippopotamuses
And hippopotamuses like me too
Mom says the hippo would eat me up, but then
Teacher says a hippo is a vegeterian
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12.16.11. Christmases When You Were Mine.

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I've been doing fine without you, really
Up until the nights got cold
And everybody's here, except you, baby
Seems like everyone's got someone to hold
But for me it's just a lonely time
Cause there were Christmases when you were mine
Merry Christmas everybody
That'll have to be something I just say this year
I'll bet you got your mom another sweater
And were your cousins late again
When you were putting up the lights this year
Did you notice one less pair of hands
I know this shouldn't be a lonely time
But there were Christmases when I didn't wonder how you are tonight
Cause there were Christmases when you were mine
You were mine.
12.17.11. Christmas Must Be Something More.
What if ribbons and bows didn't mean a thing
Would the song still survive without five golden rings
Would you still wanna kiss without misletoe
What would happen if God never let it snow
What would happen if Christmas carols told a lie
Tell me what would you find
You'd see that today holds something special
Something holy, not superficial
So here's to the birthday boy who saved our lives
It's something we all try to ignore
And put a wreath up on your door
So here's something you should know that is for sure
Christmas must be something more
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12.20.11. Santa Baby.
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Think of all the fun I've missed
Think of all the fellas that I haven't kissed
Next year I could be oh so good
If you'd check off my Christmas list
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Come and trim my Christmas tree
With some decorations bought at Tiffany's
I really do believe in you
Let's see if you believe in me
Santa baby, forgot to mention one little thing, a ring
I don't mean a phone
Santa baby, and hurry down the chimney tonight
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12.22.11. Penguin, James, Penguin.
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He's Penguin, James Penguin
That dapper little guy
Like a well dressed duck in a three piece tux
He's Santa's secret spy
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12.27.11. Must Be Doing Something Right.
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Must be doin' something right
I just heard you sigh
You leaned into my kiss
And closed those deep blue need you eyes
Don't know what I did
To earn a love like this, but baby, I
Must be doin' something right
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Girl, I hope I'm on the right road
And judging by the smile on your face
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I don't know what I did
To earn a love like this, but baby, I
Must be doin' something right

song.journal.july.august.2011.

07.01.11 Just A Kiss.
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And I don't want to mess this thing up
I don’t want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, with Just A Kiss goodnight
I know that if we give this a little time
It will only bring us closer to the love we wanna find
It's never felt so real, not it's never felt so right.
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07.02.11. I Don't Miss You At All.
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'Cause I never think about you
I'm better off without you
I Don't Miss You At All
You don't spin around in my head
I'ts like you never existed
And I hope you don't call
I Don't Miss You At All
And I'm not trying to fight it
So you can cross my name right off the wall
I Don't Miss You At All
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07.04.11. As A Blonde.
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'Cuz you know that I just might
Break some different hearts, finish what I start
I'm not gonna wait, and mess around with fate.
And come back As A Blonde, try a different lipstick on
As A Blonde, will I get whatever I want?
I'll be ever so enticing,
Take a lot of icing, never have to watch my weight.
Yeah when I'm gone,
I'm gonna come back As A Blonde.
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07.06.11. Don't Impress Me Much.
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Okay, so you're Brad Pitt?
That Don't Impress Me Much
So you got the looks, but have you got the touch
Don't get me wrong, yeah I think you're alright
But that won't keep me warm in the middle of the night
That Don't Impress Me Much
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07.07.11. Summer Nights.
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We went crazy cooped all winter long
And school is out, so let's get it on
Flip flop tans and some white sand
I know the perfect spot
Well the sunset better set soon
So we can get in the mood
Things start getting all heated up
When it strts getting cool, yeah
Summer Nights
Everybody, are you with me?
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07.08.11. Story of Us.
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I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how
I've never heard silence quite this loud
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07.11.11. Summer Rain.
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I've been saving my love for a rainy day
And it's really coming down today
Out of the blue, you came
You shined a little light on a cloudy day
Baby, you could make a broken heart go away.
I'm not gonna lie this feeling inside I can't explain
I'm gonna blame it on the Summer Rain
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07.12.11. Somebody's Chelsea.
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"I'll never forget how you showed me what it means
To be Somebody's Chelsea
Somebody's world
Somebody's day and night, one and only girl
A part of a love story that never has an end
You know that's what every woman wants to be"
And I want to be
Somebody's Chelsea
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07.15.11. I Wanna Cowboy.
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I'm tired of talking 'bout it wasting my time
On all the cheap talkers needing me feeding me lines
Give me somebody who's tender but tough
Simple and honest knows a thing or two about love
I've seen enough to know I know what I like
It's the hard working, head turning rugged type
I want a down home up with the sun rise man
A pick-up truck driving bull riding strong steady hand
I want the wranglers, stetson and all that stuff
I want the real McCoy
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07.19.11. Get Out of This Town.
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Let's Get Out of This Town tonight
Nothing but dust in the shadows
Gone by morning light
Somewhere we won't ever get caught, ever be found
Baby, let's just Get Out of This Town
If we leave tonight and drive fast enough
All our troubles will be just like us
Long Gone Baby
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07.20.11. Skyscraper.
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Go run, run, run.
I'm gonna stay right here,
Watch you disappear.
It's a long way down,
But I am closer to the clouds, up here
You can take everything I have,
You can break everything I am,
Like I'm made of glass,
Like I'm made of paper.
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Go on and try to tear me down.
I will be rising from the ground,
Like a Skyscraper!
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07.21.11. I Know You Won't.
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Lately you make me feel all I am is a back-up plan
I say I'm done and then you smile at me and I forget
Everything I said
I buy into those eyes
And into your lies
You say you'll call, but I know you
You say you're coming home, but I know you
You say you'll call, but I Know You Won't
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I wish you were where you're supposed to be
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07.25.11. What To Do.
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You think about it
Can you ever change?
Finish what you started
Make me want to stay
Tired of conversation
Show me something real
Find out what your part is
Play it how you feel
Tell me What To Do, about you
Is there anyway, anything I can say
Won't break us in two
'Cause it's been a long time coming
I can't stop loving you
Tell me What To Do about you
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07.26.11. Everything I Want.
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You stayed for a while
Then left with a smile
But at least I made you happy
You make me happy too
It's kinda cheesy to say but
You're Everything I Want
When I'm with you all the hurting stops
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08.06.11. I Wanna Know.
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I wanna be the clothes you wear
Wrapped around you tight against your skin
To be a strand of your hair
Tangled and unruly, so you can run your fingers through me
I wanna be there
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I Wanna Know how you taste when you smile
Soaked in the rain and drenched in the sunshine!
I Wanna Know where you go when you sleep?
Do you think about me?
I Wanna Know
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The only one that soothes you
Who's really closest to you
Like a kiss on your lips
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08.10.11. I Love You This Big.
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By the way my heart starts pounding
When I look into your eyes
I might look a little silly
Standing with my arms stretched open wide.
I Love You This Big
Eyes have never seen.. this big
No one's ever dreamed... this big
And I'll spend the rest of my life
Explaining what words cannot describe but, I'll try
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08.12.11. What Do I Have To Do?
I hear what you're not saying,
Loud and clear.
I've long since stopped asking
How you feel.
If I’m ever gonna be any closer to you
Oh What Do I Have To You
To get you to talk to me, say anything,
Just see me in the room
I don’t wanna be a flower on the wall,
Wilting away
How hard is it just to have a simple conversation?
Ask me all about the book I read, or how my day went
For me to get through to you
Oh, What Do I Have To Do?
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08.15.11. When Love Gets A Hold of You.
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It's tugging at your heart, but you don't show it
It's just a matter of time
It's gonna hit you right between the eyes
You'll wake up in the middle of the night
I'll be the only thing on your mind
Won't be able to shake it loose
When Love Gets a Hold of You
Before you have your first cup of coffee
You're gonna pick up the phone and call me
Won't believe what you say and do
When Love Gets A Hold of You
Cause it's gonna be written all over your face
All your friends gonna tell you how much you've changed
Feeling things that you can't deny
Going crazy and you don't know why
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08.19.11. Keep Breathing.
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I want to change the world...instead I sleep.
I want to believe in more than you and me.
But all that I know is I'm breathing.
All I can do is Keep Breathing.
All we can do is Keep Breathing now.
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08.21.11. Bridge You Burn.
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He's the lesson you learn
He's the dead end you see when you realize you made a wrong turn
He's the one last look back when you finally get over the hurt
He's the Bridge You Burn
No you're not the first one to think they can change him
Well that line of fools is so long
But you'll be the only one you have to blame when
You wake up and he's gone
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08.22.11. Come In with The Rain.
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I've got you down, I know you by heart
And you don't even know where I start
Talk to yourself, talk to the tears
Talk to the man who put you here
Don't wait for the sky to clear
I've watched you so long, screamed your name
I don't know what else I can say
But I'll leave my window open
'Cause I'm too tired tonight for all these games
Just know I'm right here hoping
You'll Come In With The Rain.
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08.27.11. Everything You're Not.
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'Cause all I want is Everything You're Not
So go ahead and slam the door 'cause you can't shut me out
No, I don't, don't care what you say
'Cause all I really, all I really want is Everything You're Not
Never gonna break my heart again
Never gonna see your face again
Never wanna feel this way again
Your darkness was my weakness
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And I am done with your twisted symphony
The words that had me sound like stolen poetry
I tore the pages and I can finally breathe.
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08.30.11. What Can I Say.
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So I said all I had to say
In letters that I threw away
And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number, but it's been so long
It's never easy, it's like tryin' to spin the world the other way
What Can I Say?
How did it come to this?
I think about you all the time
08.31.11. I Won't Apologize.
You had me to get her.
And here, I thought it was me.
I was changin', arrangin' my life to fit your lies.
It's all said and all done.
I gave it all for this long hopeless war
Can she say the same thing?
I guess this is good-bye and good luck.
(I can't be what you want me to be.)
I'm sorry for changing.
I'm sorry it had to be this way.
Believe me, it's easier just to pretend.
But, I Won't Apologize for who I am.
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I used to accept it, I didn't know I could be free.
But I am, and I won't go back 'cause you so don't deserve me.
(I don't even want to be her.)
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I don't need you anymore.
I'm sorry.
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song.journal.may.june.2011.

05.01.11. Summer's Not Hot.
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The temperature is 99
And it can't get much hotter
So come on over Romeo and 'Vamos A La Playa'
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The Summer's Not Hot, The Summer's Not Hot WITHOUT you!
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05.14.11. Are You Gonna Kiss Me Or Not.
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Are You Gonna Kiss Me or Not?
Are we gonna do this or what?
I think you know I like you a lot
But you're about to miss your shot
Are You Gonna Kiss Me or Not?
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05.16.11. Up.
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Even my skin is acting weird
I wish that I could grow a beard
Then I could cover UP my spots
Not play connect the dots
I just wanna disappear
UP--UP--UP--
Can Only go UP from here
UP--UP--UP--UP
Where the clouds gonna clear
UP--UP--UP--
There's no way but UP from here
Even something as simple as
Forgettin' to fill up on gas
There ain't not explaination why --
Things like that can make you cry
Just gotta learn to have a laugh.
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05.17.11. Enchanted.
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The lingering question kept me up
2am, who do you love?
I wonder till I'm wide awake
Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door
I'd open up and you would say, hey
It was enchanting to meet you
All I know is that I was Enchanted to meet you
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I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
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05.26.11. Permanent Marker.
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I know he loved you
A long time ago
Ain't jealous of you
Just thought you should know
You were never good enough for him or anything like me
So you might as well step back 'cause I ain't tryin' to show maturity
X is the mark I drew through your face in Permanent Marker
Just like the mark you knew you were making
Who do you think you are, to write on his heart?
In Permanent Marker
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05.27.11. Me, Myself and Time.
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And I know everything will be fine
With Me, Myself and Time.
I go where life takes me, but somedays it makes me want to change my direction
Sometimes it gets lonely, but I know that it's only a matter of my perception
I just entered this brand new world
And I'm so open-hearted
I know I've got a long way to go, but I,
I'm just getting started
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05.31.11. Don't Forget To Remember Me.
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Tonight I find myself kneeling by the bed to pray
I haven't done this in a while
So I don't know what to say but
'Lord I feel so small sometimes in this big ol' place
Yeah, I know there are more important things,
But Don't Forget to Remember Me
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05.31.11. UP.
It's 'bout as bad as it could be
Seems everybody's buggin' me
Like nothing wants to go my way--
Yeah, it just ain't been my day
Nothin's comin' easily
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06.03.11. Defying Gravity.
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I'm through accepting limits
'Cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!
I'd sooner buy
Defying Gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm Defying Gravity
And you can't pull me down!
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06.04.11. Sparks Fly.
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My mind forgets to remind me
You're a bad idea
You touch me once and it's really something
You'll find I'm even better than you even imagined I'd be
I'm on my guard for the rest of the world
But with you, I know it's no good
And I could wait paitently, but I really wish you would
Drop everything now
Meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk
Take away the pain
'Cause I see Sparks Fly whenever you smile
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06.08.11. No One Needs To Know.
Am I dreamin' or stupid?
I think I've been hit by Cupid
But No One Needs to Know right now
And I've been busy makin' big plans
But No One Needs To Know right now
I got my heart set, my feet wet
And he don't even know it yet
But No One Needs To Know right now
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06.09.11. Into You.
If he doesn't call when he says he'll call;
Or if he doesn't even call at all,
Well, he just might not be that Into You.
If he's too busy to see you on the weekends;
And he doesn't introduce you to his friends,
Well, he just might not be that Into You.
'Cause if he was he'd be hanging on your every word.
He'd put away his little black book and put you first.
He'd be doing double back flips to make it work out.
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06.14.11. Stupid Boy
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She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice
And that's what happens when the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
You Stupid Boy
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It took a while for her to figure out she could run
But when she did, she was long gone,
Long gone
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06.19.11. Cryin' For Me.
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Got the news on Friday mornin’
But a tear I couldn’t find
You showed me how I'm supposed to live
And now you showed me how to die
I was lost till Sunday mornin’
I woke up to face my fear
While I’m writing you this goodbye song
I found a tear
I’m gonna miss that smile,
I’m gonna miss you my friend
Even though it hurts the way it ended up
I’d do it all again
So play it sweet in heaven
‘Cause that’s right where you wanna be
I'm NOT crying 'cause I feel so sorry for you
I'm Crying For Me
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06.21.11. Run.
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'Cause I swear out there ain’t where you ought to be
So catch a ride, catch a cab
Don't you know I miss you bad
But don't you walk to me
Baby RUN, cut a path across the blue skies
Straight in a straight line
You can't get here fast enough
Find a truck and fire it up
Lean on the gas and off the clutch
Leave Dallas in the dust
I need you in a rush
So baby RUN
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