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Thursday 29 March 2012

song.journal.september.october.2011.

09.01.11. Breathe.
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People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time
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Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around
And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand
And I can't Breathe
Without you, but I have to
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Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt
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09.02.11. Everytime You Lie.
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Don't say you're sorry
'Cause I'm not even breaking
You're not worth the time that this is taking
I knew better
Than to let you break my heart
This soul you'll never see again
Won't be showing scars
You still love her
I can see it in your eyes
The truth is all that I can hear
Everytime You Lie
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I woke up the next morning
With a smile on my face
And a long list of gentlemen
Happy to take your place
Less trashier, much classier
Then who you proved to be
How long's it gonna take before
You see that she's no me
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09.03.11. Trainwreck.
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I shook your hand and you pulled it right away
You asked me to dance and instead I said, "No way!"
Inside I was dying to give it a try and you begged me so I stayed
I knew you were different from the way I caved
We were so different
But opposites attract
So my hope kept growing
And I never looked back
You're one of a kind!
And no one can change this heart of mine
One more thing I thought I'd share with someone special
I'm falling like I never fell before
It's funny you said we'd never make it and look how far we've come
You're a Trainwreck
But with you I'm in love
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09.04.11. The Other Side of the Door.
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I said, "Leave," but all I really want is you
To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles, screaming, "I'm in love with you."
Wait there in the pourin' rain,
Come back for more.
And don't you leave,
'Cause I know all I need
Is on The Other Side Of The Door.
Me and my stupid pride
Are sittin' here, alone.
I'm going through the photographs,
Staring at the phone.
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If you know everything
Tell me why you couldn't see
That when I left I wanted you to chase after me?
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09.06.11. Keep Your Pants On.
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You were doing so good, so smooth from the start,
Well on your way to stealing my heart!
Turns out my heart ain't what you had in mind
Won't be no trophy, no notch on your belt,
No locker room story that you don't even tell.
Keep Your Pants On!
Baby, slow down!
I ain't your boy toy
I ain't your playground
Maybe first base, but not a grand slam!
I ain't no angel, but my mama didn't raise me wrong!
Keep Your Pants On
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09.09.11. Better Than Revenge.
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The story starts when it was hot and it was summer
And I had it all, I had him right there where I wanted him

She came along, got him alone, and let's hear the applause
She took him faster than you can say sabotage
I never saw it coming, wouldn't have suspected it
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Sophistication isn't what you wear or who you know
Or pushing people down to get you where you wanna go
Oh, they didn't teach you that in prep school, so it's up to me
But no amount of vintage dresses gives you dignity
She's not a saint, and she's not what you think
She's an actress, whoa
She's better known for the things that she does on the mattress

09.10.11. You Lie.
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I never liked the taste of crow but baby I ate it
They tried to warn me
They said that you were ornery
So don't bring me those big brown eyes and tell me that you're sorry
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That ain't my perfume
I bet she had a curfew
You told me you were out with the boys and baby I believed you
So why you lookin' so nervous?
You know you're gonna deserve this
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Well, I'll tell you what I'm gonna do
I'm gonna drive into the big ol' muddy river
I'm gonna park my car in the middle of the mile-long bridge
And then I'm gonna cry well maybe just a little
Then I'm gonna slip off the ring that you put on my finger
Give it a big ol' fling and watch it sink
Down, down, down
There it's gonna lie
Until the Lord comes back around
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Well it's what you do, it's who you are
09.11.13. God Must Be Busy.
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And I know in the big picture
I'm just a speck of sand
And God's got better things to do
Than look out for one man.
I know he's heard my prayers
'Cause he hears everything,
He just ain't answered back
Or he'd bring you back to me.
God Must Be Busy.
That evening news,
Ain't much changed, pretty much the same
Since I left home.
Yeah that war's still on.
They found that little girl.
She was soaking wet,
Half scared to death on the side of some road.
Them prayers work, you know
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09.12.11. My Heart Can't Tell You No.
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So I let you in, knowing tomorrow
I'm gonna wake up missing you,
Wake up missing you.
When the one you love's in love with someone else,
Don't you know it's torture? I mean it's a living hell.
No matter how I try to convince myself,
This time I won't lose control.
One look in your blue eyes and suddenly
My Heart Can't Tell You No

I don't want you to call me up no more,
Saying you need me.
You're crazy if you think just half your love
Could ever please me.
Still I want to hold you, touch you
When you look at me that way.
There's only one solution I know:
You got to stay away from me!

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09.14.11. 15 Minutes of Shame.
Yeah this song is about you
I'm givin' you more than fair warning right now on your radio
Everybody's gonna hear
All the things that you did
That you don't want the world to know
I'm spilling the beans
I'm shouting it out
Yeah you're gonna be sorry now...
And try to deny it when I reveal the truth
Sure you're pretty good at working a line, but it's all just a matter of time...
Every girl in this world's gonna know your name                                                                   And I hope you enjoy your 15 Minutes                                                                                    of Shame
09.18.11. More Like Her.
She's beautiful in her simple little way
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Guess I should've been more like that
You had it all for a pretty little while
And some how you made me smile when I was sad
You took a chance on a bruised and beaten heart
Then you realized you wanted what you had
I guess I should've been more like that
I should have held on to my pride
I should have never let you lie
I guess you got what you deserved
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You don't look much like a man from where I'm at
It's plain to see desperation showed it's truth
You love her and she loves you with all she has
I guess I should've been more like that
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I guess I should've been More Like Her
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09.19.11. House That Built Me.
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I thought if I could touch this place or feel it
This brokenness inside me might start healing
Out here it’s like I’m someone else
I thought that maybe I could find myself
If I could just come in I swear I’ll leave
Won’t take nothing but a memory
From the House That Built Me
You leave home and you move on and you do the best you can
I got lost in this old world and forgot who I am
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09.20.11. Crush.
I guess I should've known
It wasn't gonna end okay
You're such a trouble maker
But I like you just that way.
A bomb tick ticking with neither one of us to blame
Just like a countdown ready to blow
I sat around a lot and thought
About the world without you
And no matter what you think
Everything is not about you
You think I'm still hung up on you
But baby it's not true
Now look at me
Your memories turn into dust
There is only one explanation
I wasn't really in love
It was just a crush
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You'll be fine
Just find another girl
To kick around
Won't be long
Until they all know what
I figured out
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09.21.11. A Little Bit Stronger.
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And I'm done hoping that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around.
I'm done thinking, that you could ever change.

I know my heart will never be the same,
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay.
Even on my weakest days
, I get A Little Bit Stronger.
Doesn't happen over night, but you turn around and a months gone by,
And you realize you haven't cried.
I'm not giving you a hour or a second or another minute longer.

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09.23.11. I Could Break Your Heart Any Day of The Week.
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Those calendar girls-- they got nothing of me.
I Could Break Your Heart Any Day Of The Week.
Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday.
I’ll make you nervous.
Thursday, Friday, Saturday.
Don't you disturb us.
Sunday rolls around- but that’s another story.
It gets a little boring.
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09.25.11. Maybe Possibly.
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Believe me when I say, you're gonna regret it
You'll see
That Maybe, Possibly I was the best I don't compare to the rest
And Maybe, Possibly you make me aware of everything I say and do
And Maybe, Possibly I still want you
We broke up and now I'm just waiting for me
To see, the real reality
That what we had is only what we used to be
I should've known better, I could've done better

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And Maybe, Possibly you were the best, you don't compare to the rest
And Maybe, Possibly I want you to be in everything I say and do

And Maybe, Possibly you still want me too.

09.27.11. Best Thing I Never Had
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There was a time
I thought, that you did everything right,
No lies, no wrong,
Boy I must have been out of my mind,
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you,
You showed your self and I, I saw the real you!
Thank God you blew it,
Thank God I dodged the bullet,
I'm so over you
So baby go lookin' out!
I wanted you bad,
I'm so through with that,

'Cause honestly you turned out to be the Best Thing I Never Had,
You turned out to be the Best Thing I Never Had,
And I'm gon' always be the Best Thing You Never Had,
Oh yeah, I bet it sucks to be you right now!
So sad, you're hurt,
Boo hoo, oh did you expect me to care?
You don't deserve my tears,
I guess that's why they ain't there,

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10.04.11. Give Love A Try.
You, you're like driving on a Sunday,
You, you're like taking off on Monday,
You, you're like a dream, a dream come true.
I, I'm just a face you never notice,
And I, I'm just trying to be honest with myself,
With you, with the world.
You might think, that I'm a fool for falling over you,
So tell me what can I do, to prove to you,
That it's not so hard to do,
Give Love A Try, one more time,
'Cause you know that I'm on your side.
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10.20.11. I'm Gonna Getcha Good.
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You're a fine piece of real estate, and I'm gonna get me some land
So, don't try to run, honey, love can be fun
There's no need to be alone when you find that someone
I'm gonna getcha while I gotcha in sight
I'm gonna getcha if it takes all night
You can betcha by the time I say "go," you'll never say "no"
I'm gonna getcha, it's a matter of fact
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I've already planned it - here's how it's gonna be
I'm gonna love you and - you're gonna fall in love with me

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10.14.11. She Won't Be Lonely Long.
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Heaven help the fool who did her wrong
It’s too late, too bad, she’s too far gone
He should’ve thought of that

Before he left her all alone
If she’s lonely now
She Won’t Be Lonely Long
Somethin’ bout the way she’s blushin’
You can tell she isn’t sure
Let you know she’s up to somethin’
She’s never done before
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10.19.11. As A Blonde.
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I'm tainted, I'm tired, of being the same, yeah.
I'm desperate, I'm bored, I'm begging for change.
What if you're normal and wanna be strange?
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10.24.11. Storm Warning.
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I'm gonna wish I had a Storm Warning
I'm gonna wish I had a sign
I'm gonna wish I had a little heads up

Little lee-way, little more time
Some kind of radar system
Locked in on love
I got a feeling by the time the night finds the morning
I'm gonna wish I had a Storm Warning
Ain't it funny how it feels
When you're burning your wheels
Somewhere between goin' and gone

You get so lost that you can't turn it off
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10.30.11. Happily Never After.
I thought, we were unstoppable..yeah
I felt, it's undeniable that anyone
Could see, I was so, in, love with you
I thought we'd always be, happy, happy
I thought you'd always be, good for me
Guess I, was wrong
Guess you'll always be, my,
Happy, happy, Happy Never After
Happy Never After
Maybe, your not good for me but,
Baby, no oh I don't need you
Now I see, so clearly
It's time, to let, you, go

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10.31.11. Before The Storm.
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I'm standing out in the rain
I need to know if it's over
'Cause I will leave you alone
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